NON-DUALITY
The Journey Ahead….
1 - January - Introduction & Prepare for the Journey
2 - February - Feels like Something is Missing
3 - March - Uncover the Clues
4 - April - Locate the Missing Pieces
5 - May - Land a New Approach
6 - June - Concentrate your Practice
7 - July - Impressions of Home
8 - August - Recognize your Wholeness
9 - September - Completely Gone
10 - October - Long for Nothing
11 - November - Enter the World Again
12 - December - Your Homecoming Graduation
1 - January - Introduction & Prepare for the Journey
2 - February - Feels like Something is Missing
3 - March - Uncover the Clues
4 - April - Locate the Missing Pieces
5 - May - Land a New Approach
6 - June - Concentrate your Practice
7 - July - Impressions of Home
8 - August - Recognize your Wholeness
9 - September - Completely Gone
10 - October - Long for Nothing
11 - November - Enter the World Again
12 - December - Your Homecoming Graduation
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Locate the missing pieces
The mirror of my mind
Is sometimes clouded by smoke
That got much worse
After I misspoke
I see the signs
In my throat words are caught
That beast is mine
And can be taught
Questions for contemplation:
1. Have you ever said something that you later regretted? What did you do about it?
Yes I did more than once, but most poignant was this case. It involved one of the people I care about most in the world, who I had feelings for and she did not reciprocate (we had been good friends for 6 years leading up to this but were getting closer and closer and she had become my best friend). I won't get into the details but after getting rejected (for lack of a better word), I said some things I REALLY shouldn't have (to put it mildly) and it was one of the most painful weeks of my life emotionally. What was most painful was not losing a potential romantic partner, but losing my best friend. Anyway after it happened, she did not want to connect anymore, so I did not see her for a year after that. Honestly I did not really think I would see her ever again except perhaps just waving or nodding if we crossed paths. It was a year of deep introspection for me and I just focused on meditation, nonduality and some flat earth debunking (which oddly helped take my mind off it initially..lol). But it was mainly the going within and touching the inner Presence in the many glimpses I gleaned in meditation and nonduality that was the true healing.
Long story short, a year later I saw her at a restaurant with a mutual friend, and I was reluctant to go over but he waved me over. So I sat down and he left (later he told me purposely). Then she and I talked for like an hour almost like nothing happened and we seemed like friends again.
So currently I still see her often and at least for me she is still my best friend. I have to admit, the attraction is still there, but my friendship with her tips the scales beyond whatever bittersweet pain lingers (and it still does a bit but not nearly as much). Additionally, I have vowed to myself not to ever act out like that ever again with her. A vow I take very seriously.
2. Did you ever state a "fact" that later turned out to be false?
Ans: Well I tell flat earthers the earth is a sphere but if they turn out to be right...LOL..
Seriously, yes I make mistakes all the time and state things as facts many times when I should not. Interestingly, the scientific method never takes anything as fact, there are only good theories and models that make accurate predictions of the world we live in AND these models have empirical evidence that stands the test of time. The more evidence and better the predictive power, the better the theory. This is what I most like about science (at least the pure sciences not motivated by lucre). So in science nothing is ever proven, and if new evidence comes along that contradicts the current theory or model, science will revise that theory into a new one. It is not that the previous theory was wrong, because it was always only a theory! In this spirit, we can learn and grow and deepen our understanding of the Cosmos. Contrary to this is fundamental religion which takes the holy books as infallible facts. Such a narrow outlook can never grow in understanding even in the face of overwhelming evidence that debunks archaic beliefs like the earth being only 6000 years old or even worse, that it is flat..haha.
I have to be humble and admit, I do state things as fact more than I should in wanting to be right, even with flat earthers, so striving more towards the scientific approach would be a noble goal in whatever worldviews I hold and be ready and willing to amend and update them as new evidence arises.
3. Do you find it easy or difficult to apologize after you misspeak?
4. Would someone describe you as quiet or talkative?
I am talkative in many situations and quiet in others. I guess overall I can be a little on the talkative side when I am with people because I have so much time alone in quiet. I think it is something that I would do well to be more conscious of, of not talking so much around others, though it is usually very positive and engaging conversation.
5. How do you prepare yourself for a difficult conversation?
I prepared a whole day almost for the instance leading up to what I mentioned in question #1 and I think it made it worse. Basically I was wanting to know why she rejected me and why I thought we were a good match.
I had like two pages written and it ended up going poorly and falling on deaf ears. But this preparation was too selfishly motivated and looking back on it bordering on comical. Honestly I don't know what I was thinking...lol
However, I think with the right mindset preparing can be good to do when you have both parties best interests in mind and to try to make sure you don't overreact if certain things are said. Maybe a balance is ideal, some preparation but not too scripted so you can connect without an agenda. Having said all that I am admittedly not good at difficult conversations, something I am still "working on".
The mirror of my mind
Is sometimes clouded by smoke
That got much worse
After I misspoke
I see the signs
In my throat words are caught
That beast is mine
And can be taught
Questions for contemplation:
1. Have you ever said something that you later regretted? What did you do about it?
Yes I did more than once, but most poignant was this case. It involved one of the people I care about most in the world, who I had feelings for and she did not reciprocate (we had been good friends for 6 years leading up to this but were getting closer and closer and she had become my best friend). I won't get into the details but after getting rejected (for lack of a better word), I said some things I REALLY shouldn't have (to put it mildly) and it was one of the most painful weeks of my life emotionally. What was most painful was not losing a potential romantic partner, but losing my best friend. Anyway after it happened, she did not want to connect anymore, so I did not see her for a year after that. Honestly I did not really think I would see her ever again except perhaps just waving or nodding if we crossed paths. It was a year of deep introspection for me and I just focused on meditation, nonduality and some flat earth debunking (which oddly helped take my mind off it initially..lol). But it was mainly the going within and touching the inner Presence in the many glimpses I gleaned in meditation and nonduality that was the true healing.
Long story short, a year later I saw her at a restaurant with a mutual friend, and I was reluctant to go over but he waved me over. So I sat down and he left (later he told me purposely). Then she and I talked for like an hour almost like nothing happened and we seemed like friends again.
So currently I still see her often and at least for me she is still my best friend. I have to admit, the attraction is still there, but my friendship with her tips the scales beyond whatever bittersweet pain lingers (and it still does a bit but not nearly as much). Additionally, I have vowed to myself not to ever act out like that ever again with her. A vow I take very seriously.
2. Did you ever state a "fact" that later turned out to be false?
Ans: Well I tell flat earthers the earth is a sphere but if they turn out to be right...LOL..
Seriously, yes I make mistakes all the time and state things as facts many times when I should not. Interestingly, the scientific method never takes anything as fact, there are only good theories and models that make accurate predictions of the world we live in AND these models have empirical evidence that stands the test of time. The more evidence and better the predictive power, the better the theory. This is what I most like about science (at least the pure sciences not motivated by lucre). So in science nothing is ever proven, and if new evidence comes along that contradicts the current theory or model, science will revise that theory into a new one. It is not that the previous theory was wrong, because it was always only a theory! In this spirit, we can learn and grow and deepen our understanding of the Cosmos. Contrary to this is fundamental religion which takes the holy books as infallible facts. Such a narrow outlook can never grow in understanding even in the face of overwhelming evidence that debunks archaic beliefs like the earth being only 6000 years old or even worse, that it is flat..haha.
I have to be humble and admit, I do state things as fact more than I should in wanting to be right, even with flat earthers, so striving more towards the scientific approach would be a noble goal in whatever worldviews I hold and be ready and willing to amend and update them as new evidence arises.
3. Do you find it easy or difficult to apologize after you misspeak?
4. Would someone describe you as quiet or talkative?
I am talkative in many situations and quiet in others. I guess overall I can be a little on the talkative side when I am with people because I have so much time alone in quiet. I think it is something that I would do well to be more conscious of, of not talking so much around others, though it is usually very positive and engaging conversation.
5. How do you prepare yourself for a difficult conversation?
I prepared a whole day almost for the instance leading up to what I mentioned in question #1 and I think it made it worse. Basically I was wanting to know why she rejected me and why I thought we were a good match.
I had like two pages written and it ended up going poorly and falling on deaf ears. But this preparation was too selfishly motivated and looking back on it bordering on comical. Honestly I don't know what I was thinking...lol
However, I think with the right mindset preparing can be good to do when you have both parties best interests in mind and to try to make sure you don't overreact if certain things are said. Maybe a balance is ideal, some preparation but not too scripted so you can connect without an agenda. Having said all that I am admittedly not good at difficult conversations, something I am still "working on".
April Gems
We are that which mirrors our experience.
The mind tries to make it complicated. It is very simple and straightforward. What is it that is having this experience? Once the answer becomes obvious, you can go on enjoying the rest of the movie. The ordinary life is the awakened life. Ah, but I must add, this movie also has suffering written into the script. All of the characters in the movie suffer at different points in the story. There is such suffering and also a simple way to bypass such suffering. First one must ask what is it that suffers? Who is it?
We are that which mirrors our experience.
The mind tries to make it complicated. It is very simple and straightforward. What is it that is having this experience? Once the answer becomes obvious, you can go on enjoying the rest of the movie. The ordinary life is the awakened life. Ah, but I must add, this movie also has suffering written into the script. All of the characters in the movie suffer at different points in the story. There is such suffering and also a simple way to bypass such suffering. First one must ask what is it that suffers? Who is it?
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Good Summary by Peter of the Course So Far:
April 2023 - Peter's Reflection - Locate the Missing Pieces
Here we are. We're becoming aware that we choose our likes and dislikes. We choose between things we love and hate. And this awareness of our choices is key.
In month one, we noticed a conscious awareness that something was missing inside. There was an underlying dissatisfaction. And even our successes and wins weren't filling that hole.
In month two, we recognized that in order to move away from that hole, we needed to find our path. We also realized questions about our identity in this story - about how we fit in and move forward.
Now, in month three, we begin to identify the underlying energy behind our passions and desires. We notice the threads in the tapestry that make up our story and that we choose many of those threads. We begin to admit that, for the most part, we choose our
steps AND often our missteps. This awareness alone can give us so much freedom.
Question #2)
How many different occupations have you had? What were they and which one was your favorite?
I have had quite a few. In high school I worked at a grocery store, and a sporting goods store. In college I waited tables for a while at Olive Garden, worked for GNC, did work study with GTRI (Georgia Tech Research Institute) and the EPA. After my five years of "spiritual questing" I came back to real world, got my Masters degree and taught college physics and math part time for 5 years, along with working at a health food store and doing a little tv show on health with them. All the while I dabbled in many MLMs, my most successful early on was Mannatech, and for a little while the Goji MLM with the good luck family. I even won a cruise with Goji and Peter was my upline..haha. But then I started doing well with this Miracule Water system, and then Noblerex K1 and 3 day colon cleanse were the main two. Those were a turning point because I was able to make a six figure income working from home marketing online. So I decided to move to Florida because frankly I was tired of the Michigan cold weather. My most successful business ended up being the iMRS PEMF system which I became a worldwide influencer (and still am) in PEMF with my book "PEMF the 5th Element of Health, and also several review sites and videos. I did VERY well doing this for 13 years and sold the business. All working for home. So my favorite would be the PEMF which I will get back into next year. RIght now I am also enjoying red light therapy and working on a book on Red and Near infrared light therapy. Also I am opening a small little energy medicine room this week actually with a Red light therapy bed, two PEMF devices and a Sonic vibration system. So this is all enjoyable too creating a new product and writing another book and having a space to share the technologies. I can honestly say Peter, all your courses and seminars were a HUGE part of my success especially the mindset!!
Question #5
Since there are no right or wrong places on the circle, where do you see yourself right now? How do you feel about that?
Close to balance but not there yet. Balancing activity and meditation/awareness with goalless goal of there being no dividing line, only THIS, which of course what Is already - such is the paradox..lol. ! I am currently on another cycle of activity and abundance, which I find hard to keep the balance, but the circle does seem to be turning in the right direction overall in the bigger picture, even if a go little back, I seem to go forward more.
Peter's Response: Exactly! Going back is how we go forward. "See movement as stationary and the stationary in motion..." (Sosan)
Peter's 2nd April Call - My Takeaway:
I just loved all your stories and adventures in your life and all the things you have done. I had heard some of them before, but definitely some new ones. It was a very inspiring call!
I also loved this little phrase you said that resonates with the highest nondual teachings I have come across,
"Nothing I want in the world I see, just to sit and be."
My understanding is that it doesn't mean you do nothing, but there is nothing you need to do to be happy and fulfilled. It is all "Just This" from the lowest hell to the highest heaven, a grand dream of consciousness which upon awakening is the speechless wonder of Pure Being.
I remember once you said something to the effect of (if I remember correctly):
"I am content just watching the grass grow", which is pointing to the same thing.
So beautiful, and while my mind cannot understand it a deeper part of me says YES!
Peter Replied:
Thank you for the beautiful way you express yourself. Yes, "Just this!" When simple and ordinary become special all answers disappear.
April 2023 - Peter's Reflection - Locate the Missing Pieces
Here we are. We're becoming aware that we choose our likes and dislikes. We choose between things we love and hate. And this awareness of our choices is key.
In month one, we noticed a conscious awareness that something was missing inside. There was an underlying dissatisfaction. And even our successes and wins weren't filling that hole.
In month two, we recognized that in order to move away from that hole, we needed to find our path. We also realized questions about our identity in this story - about how we fit in and move forward.
Now, in month three, we begin to identify the underlying energy behind our passions and desires. We notice the threads in the tapestry that make up our story and that we choose many of those threads. We begin to admit that, for the most part, we choose our
steps AND often our missteps. This awareness alone can give us so much freedom.
Question #2)
How many different occupations have you had? What were they and which one was your favorite?
I have had quite a few. In high school I worked at a grocery store, and a sporting goods store. In college I waited tables for a while at Olive Garden, worked for GNC, did work study with GTRI (Georgia Tech Research Institute) and the EPA. After my five years of "spiritual questing" I came back to real world, got my Masters degree and taught college physics and math part time for 5 years, along with working at a health food store and doing a little tv show on health with them. All the while I dabbled in many MLMs, my most successful early on was Mannatech, and for a little while the Goji MLM with the good luck family. I even won a cruise with Goji and Peter was my upline..haha. But then I started doing well with this Miracule Water system, and then Noblerex K1 and 3 day colon cleanse were the main two. Those were a turning point because I was able to make a six figure income working from home marketing online. So I decided to move to Florida because frankly I was tired of the Michigan cold weather. My most successful business ended up being the iMRS PEMF system which I became a worldwide influencer (and still am) in PEMF with my book "PEMF the 5th Element of Health, and also several review sites and videos. I did VERY well doing this for 13 years and sold the business. All working for home. So my favorite would be the PEMF which I will get back into next year. RIght now I am also enjoying red light therapy and working on a book on Red and Near infrared light therapy. Also I am opening a small little energy medicine room this week actually with a Red light therapy bed, two PEMF devices and a Sonic vibration system. So this is all enjoyable too creating a new product and writing another book and having a space to share the technologies. I can honestly say Peter, all your courses and seminars were a HUGE part of my success especially the mindset!!
Question #5
Since there are no right or wrong places on the circle, where do you see yourself right now? How do you feel about that?
Close to balance but not there yet. Balancing activity and meditation/awareness with goalless goal of there being no dividing line, only THIS, which of course what Is already - such is the paradox..lol. ! I am currently on another cycle of activity and abundance, which I find hard to keep the balance, but the circle does seem to be turning in the right direction overall in the bigger picture, even if a go little back, I seem to go forward more.
Peter's Response: Exactly! Going back is how we go forward. "See movement as stationary and the stationary in motion..." (Sosan)
Peter's 2nd April Call - My Takeaway:
I just loved all your stories and adventures in your life and all the things you have done. I had heard some of them before, but definitely some new ones. It was a very inspiring call!
I also loved this little phrase you said that resonates with the highest nondual teachings I have come across,
"Nothing I want in the world I see, just to sit and be."
My understanding is that it doesn't mean you do nothing, but there is nothing you need to do to be happy and fulfilled. It is all "Just This" from the lowest hell to the highest heaven, a grand dream of consciousness which upon awakening is the speechless wonder of Pure Being.
I remember once you said something to the effect of (if I remember correctly):
"I am content just watching the grass grow", which is pointing to the same thing.
So beautiful, and while my mind cannot understand it a deeper part of me says YES!
Peter Replied:
Thank you for the beautiful way you express yourself. Yes, "Just this!" When simple and ordinary become special all answers disappear.
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Poem For May
Land A New Approach
"In quiet moments all alone
When my own world feels tranquil
There appears nothing to atone
And for this I'm most thankful
But, I find I can't condone
The passions and opinions for which I'm regretful
If I could just tame and ride them home
Then I might be successful"
We are now at the forth step of recognizing the powerful energy underlying our opinions and passions. Now we can find ways of riding this energy to deeper places within. There's a lot more happening with these questions then meets the eye.
Question #3)
How important is contentment is your vision of success?
My Answer:
If I had all the money I needed to live at least to 120-140, I am confident I would have contentment. I know this because I took two years off, and overall I feel I was getting really close and had several wonderful glimpses. But then my savings got too low, so I am back playing the money game. These new projects are exciting, but I would not say when I am in this "work mode", that I feel contentment. I guess it is humbling, because the question I need to ask myself is: why not?
But yes, ultimate success is having contentment. It seems the highest level would be by conquering the mountains of consciousness (waking up), health (wearing a loose and comfortable body with ease of movement/living), and abundance (having the freedom to do whatever you want whenever you want). This is not exhaustive, but it seems to me success in these areas of life would lead naturally to contentment (maybe add relationships too). But it also makes sense that when you wake up from the dream, contentment is not conditioned on anything anymore. So while I am there (Just This), I recognize in humility that I am not there... such is the paradox of the illusory separate self...LOL.
Great Question!
Could it be a playful litmus test of authentic nondual awakening that all there is is contentment? If all there is is Just This, and if you truly recognize THAT, how could there not be contentment? Again a humbling musing.
Peter Replied: Its funny when I think about it, I've never had a non-dual thought. The very nature of mind is this verses that, like verses dislike, a continuing parade of opposites etc.. My mind can never be content, only that which experiences my mind is content. Since it is always just experiencing, just doing what awareness does it is never disturbed, anymore than the ocean is disturbed by the waves. Of course there are times when the ocean is placid and the mind transparent. Then contentment shines through the mind or surface. But the mind itself is not content. Its nature is to move. Then consciousness simply watches. Contentment is what watches all of it.
I responded: Thanks for sharing that wonderful gem Peter. I love that: "Contentment is what watches all of it." That really rings true.
Peter Replied: I have to chuckle, this is the most obvious thing there is. We as "humans" simply have an identity crisis and then one day we wake up and say, "Wow, for a moment I dreamt I was my mind instead of the screen on which it plays."
Question #5)
Many people talk about having a purpose, what do you think/feel/know is your purpose?
My Answer: I remember Yogananda would say "the purpose of life is to find God". Interpreted in the light of God BEING the Self, I would say this is still my main "purpose"...Waking Up or whatever word you would use. However, I am also beginning to recognize there is really nothing I can do for this to happen, because it Already Is..lol. So making it a purpose is in a way an illusion and in a way it's not... BUT it is still what is most important to me.
As far as my person in this role as Bryant, it does seem to be centered around sharing breakthroughs in health and wellness especially energy medicine. That is a more concrete and down to earth purpose, but if I had all the time and money to do anything, it would be focused around non-duality and waking up, in whatever way that would spontaneously unfold which would probably still involve sharing energy medicine technologies in a more effortless way.
Peters Reply:
I chuckle at the thought that no one needs to be concerned about waking up in the morning, it's just some like to sleep later. Ha, ha! Waking up requires no effort, it happens of its own. It can't be stopped! Now getting to sleep may be a problem for some folks, but they too still wake up.
Land A New Approach
"In quiet moments all alone
When my own world feels tranquil
There appears nothing to atone
And for this I'm most thankful
But, I find I can't condone
The passions and opinions for which I'm regretful
If I could just tame and ride them home
Then I might be successful"
We are now at the forth step of recognizing the powerful energy underlying our opinions and passions. Now we can find ways of riding this energy to deeper places within. There's a lot more happening with these questions then meets the eye.
Question #3)
How important is contentment is your vision of success?
My Answer:
If I had all the money I needed to live at least to 120-140, I am confident I would have contentment. I know this because I took two years off, and overall I feel I was getting really close and had several wonderful glimpses. But then my savings got too low, so I am back playing the money game. These new projects are exciting, but I would not say when I am in this "work mode", that I feel contentment. I guess it is humbling, because the question I need to ask myself is: why not?
But yes, ultimate success is having contentment. It seems the highest level would be by conquering the mountains of consciousness (waking up), health (wearing a loose and comfortable body with ease of movement/living), and abundance (having the freedom to do whatever you want whenever you want). This is not exhaustive, but it seems to me success in these areas of life would lead naturally to contentment (maybe add relationships too). But it also makes sense that when you wake up from the dream, contentment is not conditioned on anything anymore. So while I am there (Just This), I recognize in humility that I am not there... such is the paradox of the illusory separate self...LOL.
Great Question!
Could it be a playful litmus test of authentic nondual awakening that all there is is contentment? If all there is is Just This, and if you truly recognize THAT, how could there not be contentment? Again a humbling musing.
Peter Replied: Its funny when I think about it, I've never had a non-dual thought. The very nature of mind is this verses that, like verses dislike, a continuing parade of opposites etc.. My mind can never be content, only that which experiences my mind is content. Since it is always just experiencing, just doing what awareness does it is never disturbed, anymore than the ocean is disturbed by the waves. Of course there are times when the ocean is placid and the mind transparent. Then contentment shines through the mind or surface. But the mind itself is not content. Its nature is to move. Then consciousness simply watches. Contentment is what watches all of it.
I responded: Thanks for sharing that wonderful gem Peter. I love that: "Contentment is what watches all of it." That really rings true.
Peter Replied: I have to chuckle, this is the most obvious thing there is. We as "humans" simply have an identity crisis and then one day we wake up and say, "Wow, for a moment I dreamt I was my mind instead of the screen on which it plays."
Question #5)
Many people talk about having a purpose, what do you think/feel/know is your purpose?
My Answer: I remember Yogananda would say "the purpose of life is to find God". Interpreted in the light of God BEING the Self, I would say this is still my main "purpose"...Waking Up or whatever word you would use. However, I am also beginning to recognize there is really nothing I can do for this to happen, because it Already Is..lol. So making it a purpose is in a way an illusion and in a way it's not... BUT it is still what is most important to me.
As far as my person in this role as Bryant, it does seem to be centered around sharing breakthroughs in health and wellness especially energy medicine. That is a more concrete and down to earth purpose, but if I had all the time and money to do anything, it would be focused around non-duality and waking up, in whatever way that would spontaneously unfold which would probably still involve sharing energy medicine technologies in a more effortless way.
Peters Reply:
I chuckle at the thought that no one needs to be concerned about waking up in the morning, it's just some like to sleep later. Ha, ha! Waking up requires no effort, it happens of its own. It can't be stopped! Now getting to sleep may be a problem for some folks, but they too still wake up.
Peter's Live Call May
Ball of energy, surface emotions, ideas, beliefs. Dig deeper into motivations.
Mayo Ku Ni - Our own inner volcanic eruption zones. Catching the Bull, catching the power, this incredible thing that we are. Many layers here. Dig into the questions.
Q1: Success in teens and twenties and what does it mean to do.
Freedom just to be.
Simplicity is success. Worldly success was bittersweet.
Sing the song of Agelessness.. Beauty of growing older is incredible power of reflection.
Q2: How important are achievements?
Driven by a vision.
Achievements. Fluency in Finnish, new records in gym, travel to new locations, low maintenance life.
Fondest image of success: When my timeless self essence is reached. Chasing after anything in order to find happiness is an illusion.
Why is there a pleasant satisfaction upon achieving a goal. In present moment there are no goals! Goals are always about the future, not the present. Totally content to be present in this Now moment. Stop seeking is a great success.
No longer pinning happiness on success or failure, not disliking the world of form, but free of all entanglements celebrating my Now-ness.
Tristan, goalless Dojo, just wanted to be Present.
Word of Mouth travelled the World for Peter in Seminars... Goal to share my heart, share what my experience. When a flower blossoms it shares its fragrance. Tree is goalless in producing Fruit. Sole purpose of being is to share my fruit and fragrance. That is Peter's success.
Nothing I say is accurate... I Am only pointing.
Don't bite my finger, look where it is pointing.
Q3: How important is contentment in your vision of Success.
Content or not depends on my motive. The climb or the goal?
Contentment is the fruit of success. Does this bring me joy or contentment?
Why do anything if the end result does not bring contentment? What are you doing it for?
If it doesn't bring me contentment, why I am doing this? For money? Don't do anything that won't bring you joy!
Day Trading: I am getting up in the morning thinking about this? Turned $30,000 into $400,000. In one day lost $180,000. Peter became happy when he stopped. If it doesn't make me happy, I don't do it. Finding the zero point or balance point, and operating from that point in all things.
Fading out of the attention of the world. Being nobody going nowhere!
Get up in the morning being happy for no reason whatsoever, JUST BE!!!
Q4: Do you feel guilty or uncomfortable with quiet time?
When we sit quietly, can we notice any mental static or tension?
Are you relaxed? How so?
Meditation in its own area of quiet time.
Time is money, the clock is ticking. Being distracted weakens concentration.
Quiet time strengthens concentration, and deepens relaxation.
Sitting in rocking chair, scan mind for any tension. No time pressure to take care.
Embrace quiet time as a fine treasure to embrace and enjoy.
Sit and scan my thoughts, or contemplate spiritual nondual, health, hiking with Katrina quiet time. Restaurant watching people pass. Quiet time for me is life's treasure.
Radical self honesty.
Q: Purpose
The more I dig the more I find.
Not knowing... I don't know...
I've dug pretty deep, but I still don't know.
Purpose tied to a persons interests or hobbies
Never find my purpose until I found I Who I am?
Purpose of life spiritual teacher. But no longer have any visions of making this mark.
In quiet moments, my heart whispers sweetly from a place I never left.
The richness of enough-ness
Joy of my life is purposeless awareness. Simply flowing and experiencing. Purposeless joy of just being. I can now just say I AM.
Distill it all now, it is just the essence of I AM.
We are awareness experiencing itself. All our experiences are permeated with awareness. All the things we do. Essential nature of mind is beginning-less.
We become aware of being aware. In our Awareness of this awareness, We see the world differently. Everything is playing out on this grand screen of consciousness. The screen never changes. The experiences, the images, they come and go. And Lives come and go. But something that has never died, that has never been born, something that always is, still remains and THAT is what we are. And that is what this is. It is all one beautiful Unity. We are reflecting ourselves. We are all reflections of this grand consciousness of that which is without beginning and without end.
Purpose of my life is to come full circle from this place of joy and peace.
More questions coming.
We are in the fourth spoke of this wheel. We are finding something that was initially hidden. What am I looking for? Powerful, tremendous energy field. Chance to identify it. Closer to grabbing it and have no division between ourselves and the energy field. Maybe soon I'll catch this force/power, and then when we catch it consciously we can ride it home. Goes very deep, reaches the very essence of what we are and when we see that reflection clearly
Ball of energy, surface emotions, ideas, beliefs. Dig deeper into motivations.
Mayo Ku Ni - Our own inner volcanic eruption zones. Catching the Bull, catching the power, this incredible thing that we are. Many layers here. Dig into the questions.
Q1: Success in teens and twenties and what does it mean to do.
Freedom just to be.
Simplicity is success. Worldly success was bittersweet.
Sing the song of Agelessness.. Beauty of growing older is incredible power of reflection.
Q2: How important are achievements?
Driven by a vision.
Achievements. Fluency in Finnish, new records in gym, travel to new locations, low maintenance life.
Fondest image of success: When my timeless self essence is reached. Chasing after anything in order to find happiness is an illusion.
Why is there a pleasant satisfaction upon achieving a goal. In present moment there are no goals! Goals are always about the future, not the present. Totally content to be present in this Now moment. Stop seeking is a great success.
No longer pinning happiness on success or failure, not disliking the world of form, but free of all entanglements celebrating my Now-ness.
Tristan, goalless Dojo, just wanted to be Present.
Word of Mouth travelled the World for Peter in Seminars... Goal to share my heart, share what my experience. When a flower blossoms it shares its fragrance. Tree is goalless in producing Fruit. Sole purpose of being is to share my fruit and fragrance. That is Peter's success.
Nothing I say is accurate... I Am only pointing.
Don't bite my finger, look where it is pointing.
Q3: How important is contentment in your vision of Success.
Content or not depends on my motive. The climb or the goal?
Contentment is the fruit of success. Does this bring me joy or contentment?
Why do anything if the end result does not bring contentment? What are you doing it for?
If it doesn't bring me contentment, why I am doing this? For money? Don't do anything that won't bring you joy!
Day Trading: I am getting up in the morning thinking about this? Turned $30,000 into $400,000. In one day lost $180,000. Peter became happy when he stopped. If it doesn't make me happy, I don't do it. Finding the zero point or balance point, and operating from that point in all things.
Fading out of the attention of the world. Being nobody going nowhere!
Get up in the morning being happy for no reason whatsoever, JUST BE!!!
Q4: Do you feel guilty or uncomfortable with quiet time?
When we sit quietly, can we notice any mental static or tension?
Are you relaxed? How so?
Meditation in its own area of quiet time.
Time is money, the clock is ticking. Being distracted weakens concentration.
Quiet time strengthens concentration, and deepens relaxation.
Sitting in rocking chair, scan mind for any tension. No time pressure to take care.
Embrace quiet time as a fine treasure to embrace and enjoy.
Sit and scan my thoughts, or contemplate spiritual nondual, health, hiking with Katrina quiet time. Restaurant watching people pass. Quiet time for me is life's treasure.
Radical self honesty.
Q: Purpose
The more I dig the more I find.
Not knowing... I don't know...
I've dug pretty deep, but I still don't know.
Purpose tied to a persons interests or hobbies
Never find my purpose until I found I Who I am?
Purpose of life spiritual teacher. But no longer have any visions of making this mark.
In quiet moments, my heart whispers sweetly from a place I never left.
The richness of enough-ness
Joy of my life is purposeless awareness. Simply flowing and experiencing. Purposeless joy of just being. I can now just say I AM.
Distill it all now, it is just the essence of I AM.
We are awareness experiencing itself. All our experiences are permeated with awareness. All the things we do. Essential nature of mind is beginning-less.
We become aware of being aware. In our Awareness of this awareness, We see the world differently. Everything is playing out on this grand screen of consciousness. The screen never changes. The experiences, the images, they come and go. And Lives come and go. But something that has never died, that has never been born, something that always is, still remains and THAT is what we are. And that is what this is. It is all one beautiful Unity. We are reflecting ourselves. We are all reflections of this grand consciousness of that which is without beginning and without end.
Purpose of my life is to come full circle from this place of joy and peace.
More questions coming.
We are in the fourth spoke of this wheel. We are finding something that was initially hidden. What am I looking for? Powerful, tremendous energy field. Chance to identify it. Closer to grabbing it and have no division between ourselves and the energy field. Maybe soon I'll catch this force/power, and then when we catch it consciously we can ride it home. Goes very deep, reaches the very essence of what we are and when we see that reflection clearly
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Peter’s Reflection End of May 2023
Land A New Approach
It makes me laugh when I think I have "arrived" at a higher spiritual state.
Just because I can recognize my hot passions and strong opinions does NOT mean I have tamed them or gotten them under control.
It reminds me of gentling a wild horse. You may be able to ride it, but don't for a minute think it can't throw you off.
So many spiritual gurus and teachers have convinced themselves that they've tamed their rigid beliefs and passions, only to see things crumble around them.
At this stage, a humbling recognition takes place. I see that I am the energy, the power, the drive that can be used for better or worse.
And I recognize that I need to tame it.
The energy is not separate from me. I see the world "out there" and myself "in here" but I begin to question this separation.
What am I fighting? What am I correcting? What am I changing?
Let me gentle myself first before answering.
Land A New Approach
It makes me laugh when I think I have "arrived" at a higher spiritual state.
Just because I can recognize my hot passions and strong opinions does NOT mean I have tamed them or gotten them under control.
It reminds me of gentling a wild horse. You may be able to ride it, but don't for a minute think it can't throw you off.
So many spiritual gurus and teachers have convinced themselves that they've tamed their rigid beliefs and passions, only to see things crumble around them.
At this stage, a humbling recognition takes place. I see that I am the energy, the power, the drive that can be used for better or worse.
And I recognize that I need to tame it.
The energy is not separate from me. I see the world "out there" and myself "in here" but I begin to question this separation.
What am I fighting? What am I correcting? What am I changing?
Let me gentle myself first before answering.
Peter's Sunday Facebook Live (End of May)
Undercurrent of energy beneath all of this.
It makes me laugh... POEM
I see that I am the energy.
I recognize I need to tame it..
The energy is not separate from me.
I begin to question this separation.
Let me be gentle with myself before answering.
Recognize this energy inside of us.
Urges, desires, temptations...
We are investigating an incredible source of energy.
Every day I find something to laugh about.
Good laugh... Laughter keeps me from taking myself too serious
Seriousness is the cancer of the soul.
Self importance goes out the window and humor comes in.
Creative Imagination, buttercups and rainbows.
Filter I view the past is hazy at best.
Where does a thought go after I think... Bubbles that burst.
Thoughts can't think itself... Must be recreated.
Churn it around in my mind.
I choose to see the world through the filter of my memories.
I don't believe everything I think.
I don't trust what I think.
Question memories for truth and accuracy.
My memories and my imagination...
I can only be that which I am.
Laughter works by giving up control.
When it is so intensely experienced that I AM.
It is an experience. Not talking about our existence as an entity, but
Its our experience... Grasping that.
All of a sudden, all this worry about appearance, addictions, follies, our shameful behavior, none of that matters.
This I AM , awareness experiencing itself. That is where all these questions and answers flow back into.
This ah, just this... Inexplicably letting go, Surrender and we are free.
Innocence, simple ways. Present.
Not the things I physically and mentally accomplish.
Going back into that which I truly am... Consciousness experiencing its awareness. Conscious of nothing but what is happening.
It is not something you do, it is what you don't do.
It's an unraveling of the things we have been convinced we need to do or be.
And then what? Do all that and then you are going to be happy?
Never enough, gotta do something more.
Why are you not happy?
What are you going to do?
Anything I want to?
Nothing that stops us from doing anything.
Where is the source of our happiness.
Now is that superpower. Diving into that recognition or experience.
In true Self, the greatest man is nobody.
This moment cannot be improved upon.
Simply the joy to have nothing to distract me from This,
This, just what is.
No issues to bind. Moment to moment, joy of just being.
Not physical, not spiritual, not a single word need be spoken.
Because truly there is nothing to be said.
Its the energy
We only see the manifestations of it in our lives.
Can only indicate by pointing, only can point at ourselves.
Think of question as a filter over most powerful energy, that
Is right behind that.
All the questions are fingers pointing at something.
Just seeing that all of our worries and distress are just wiped away.
Since what is cannot be said, technique of negation.
Neti Neti - not this, not that.
Realize what it isn't, what it is becomes obvious.
Is it the body, is it the mind.
Is it the world. We realize the world is us.
Buddha's first sermon.
All the monks gather together.
Sat there quietly without saying a word.
People were expecting an enlightening discourse.
Held up a flower. A disciple smiled. Buddha looked and smiled back.
Of all the months he caught it, he got it.
Energy transfer. There was an opening in consciousness.
I get it. The Koan. What is the sound of one hand clapping.
It stops the mind momentarily, the mind hiccups, then there is an insight.
When the insight is received. A certain something that can be recognized. The master chuckles, you got the joke.
To the rest of the world it looks like nonsense.
Recepient comes home.. Ah This ... JUST THIS.. how sweet it is.
You could not have told me, I had to taste it.
You cannot describe it, I had to experience it.
Undercurrent of energy beneath all of this.
It makes me laugh... POEM
I see that I am the energy.
I recognize I need to tame it..
The energy is not separate from me.
I begin to question this separation.
Let me be gentle with myself before answering.
Recognize this energy inside of us.
Urges, desires, temptations...
We are investigating an incredible source of energy.
Every day I find something to laugh about.
Good laugh... Laughter keeps me from taking myself too serious
Seriousness is the cancer of the soul.
Self importance goes out the window and humor comes in.
Creative Imagination, buttercups and rainbows.
Filter I view the past is hazy at best.
Where does a thought go after I think... Bubbles that burst.
Thoughts can't think itself... Must be recreated.
Churn it around in my mind.
I choose to see the world through the filter of my memories.
I don't believe everything I think.
I don't trust what I think.
Question memories for truth and accuracy.
My memories and my imagination...
I can only be that which I am.
Laughter works by giving up control.
When it is so intensely experienced that I AM.
It is an experience. Not talking about our existence as an entity, but
Its our experience... Grasping that.
All of a sudden, all this worry about appearance, addictions, follies, our shameful behavior, none of that matters.
This I AM , awareness experiencing itself. That is where all these questions and answers flow back into.
This ah, just this... Inexplicably letting go, Surrender and we are free.
Innocence, simple ways. Present.
Not the things I physically and mentally accomplish.
Going back into that which I truly am... Consciousness experiencing its awareness. Conscious of nothing but what is happening.
It is not something you do, it is what you don't do.
It's an unraveling of the things we have been convinced we need to do or be.
And then what? Do all that and then you are going to be happy?
Never enough, gotta do something more.
Why are you not happy?
What are you going to do?
Anything I want to?
Nothing that stops us from doing anything.
Where is the source of our happiness.
Now is that superpower. Diving into that recognition or experience.
In true Self, the greatest man is nobody.
This moment cannot be improved upon.
Simply the joy to have nothing to distract me from This,
This, just what is.
No issues to bind. Moment to moment, joy of just being.
Not physical, not spiritual, not a single word need be spoken.
Because truly there is nothing to be said.
Its the energy
We only see the manifestations of it in our lives.
Can only indicate by pointing, only can point at ourselves.
Think of question as a filter over most powerful energy, that
Is right behind that.
All the questions are fingers pointing at something.
Just seeing that all of our worries and distress are just wiped away.
Since what is cannot be said, technique of negation.
Neti Neti - not this, not that.
Realize what it isn't, what it is becomes obvious.
Is it the body, is it the mind.
Is it the world. We realize the world is us.
Buddha's first sermon.
All the monks gather together.
Sat there quietly without saying a word.
People were expecting an enlightening discourse.
Held up a flower. A disciple smiled. Buddha looked and smiled back.
Of all the months he caught it, he got it.
Energy transfer. There was an opening in consciousness.
I get it. The Koan. What is the sound of one hand clapping.
It stops the mind momentarily, the mind hiccups, then there is an insight.
When the insight is received. A certain something that can be recognized. The master chuckles, you got the joke.
To the rest of the world it looks like nonsense.
Recepient comes home.. Ah This ... JUST THIS.. how sweet it is.
You could not have told me, I had to taste it.
You cannot describe it, I had to experience it.
My Takeaway from the Call
It was a great call Peter full of love and Presence. The finger was pointing very well!
I always love when you point directly to "This, Ahhhh Just This". The most direct pointing involves saying the least or even nothing said like Buddha Twirling a flower in silence on Vulture Peak before the assembly. And only Maha-kashapa smiled or seemed to "get it".
It seems to me the Flower symbolizes Buddhas Awakening and his mere presence is an exquisite beauty and fragrance that supercedes all teaching and transcends the conceptual mind. As they say Enlightenment is more "caught" than taught and Maha-kashapa was ripe to catch it.
While you are not twirling flowers Peter, though that would be fun...lol, you have many moments you very directly point to THIS, only THIS, Beautiful Presence forever dancing in the Now moment.
You said it so beautifully Peter, "all the magic, and miracles are contained in THIS, now , here. The gift has already been given. All we have to do is unwrap it. What is in the box of nothing?"
I cannot wait to see!! LOL. The Greatest Present is Presence, and when we unwrap it, we find Nothing, beautiful, Glorious Nothing!! Perhaps the course will symbolically end around Christmastime and it is my hope that our whole beautiful Full Circle Family (myself included) is able to open, recognize and experience this Supreme Gift of Life - The awareness that we always and already ARE - I AM!
It was a great call Peter full of love and Presence. The finger was pointing very well!
I always love when you point directly to "This, Ahhhh Just This". The most direct pointing involves saying the least or even nothing said like Buddha Twirling a flower in silence on Vulture Peak before the assembly. And only Maha-kashapa smiled or seemed to "get it".
It seems to me the Flower symbolizes Buddhas Awakening and his mere presence is an exquisite beauty and fragrance that supercedes all teaching and transcends the conceptual mind. As they say Enlightenment is more "caught" than taught and Maha-kashapa was ripe to catch it.
While you are not twirling flowers Peter, though that would be fun...lol, you have many moments you very directly point to THIS, only THIS, Beautiful Presence forever dancing in the Now moment.
You said it so beautifully Peter, "all the magic, and miracles are contained in THIS, now , here. The gift has already been given. All we have to do is unwrap it. What is in the box of nothing?"
I cannot wait to see!! LOL. The Greatest Present is Presence, and when we unwrap it, we find Nothing, beautiful, Glorious Nothing!! Perhaps the course will symbolically end around Christmastime and it is my hope that our whole beautiful Full Circle Family (myself included) is able to open, recognize and experience this Supreme Gift of Life - The awareness that we always and already ARE - I AM!