NON-DUALITY
II. Duality and the Dream of Me (Spacelike) - [Dream Reality part 1]
1. There is an apparent Dream, Illusion, Veil that creates an apparent Individual, Me, I, or Separate Self. The separate or dreamt reality - sense of having an identity. Arises at an early age.
2. ***Contracted Energy [in Space]** This dream of ME is a result of a contracted energy, granthi, knot or energetic tension, not a mere belief. It seems to be hardwired into us by our biology combined with societal upbringing. Contracted Energy is a Psychosomatic misunderstanding, not a concept or belief.
Sensation of Effort of agitating ourselves in and out of It.
+ [run towards] Desire, grasping, owning, seeking, knowning, wishing, wanting
-[run away] Avoidance, resisting, fearing, loathing, hating,
0 [neutality] Rest in Pure Presence, whatever happens is THAT, is ok, surrender
Suddenly another, than a contracted energy. Sense that something in here is separate. This idea, contraction grows and apparent person and meets others.
Experience of here and there is a tension of holding that structure up.
Intrinsically that tension is a result of looking or seeking the release of that tension or structure holding that up.
Here is a safety blanket with a tail because now that it’s here , there is a constant need to control , know and feel safe and to search for what it thinks is missing.
When the individual arise in the body as a contracted energy , it arises in everthing energy around .. profound experience of things as solid and real arises with me here
3. **HERE** vs THERE - With the energy contraction emerges a sense of HERE, or a CENTER for the "I AM" to stake its Individuality. "Here" creates a Solidity and Realness "Out There".
What’s happening has a solidity or platform for most people. But there is nothing substantial, just the appearance, just things happening for no one. No subject object duality.
4. Concurrently a Subject / Object Duality apparently arises again because of our biology and upbringing and we see ourselves as separate individuals and hence the stage is set and the game of the seeker is afoot!
1. There is an apparent Dream, Illusion, Veil that creates an apparent Individual, Me, I, or Separate Self. The separate or dreamt reality - sense of having an identity. Arises at an early age.
2. ***Contracted Energy [in Space]** This dream of ME is a result of a contracted energy, granthi, knot or energetic tension, not a mere belief. It seems to be hardwired into us by our biology combined with societal upbringing. Contracted Energy is a Psychosomatic misunderstanding, not a concept or belief.
Sensation of Effort of agitating ourselves in and out of It.
+ [run towards] Desire, grasping, owning, seeking, knowning, wishing, wanting
-[run away] Avoidance, resisting, fearing, loathing, hating,
0 [neutality] Rest in Pure Presence, whatever happens is THAT, is ok, surrender
Suddenly another, than a contracted energy. Sense that something in here is separate. This idea, contraction grows and apparent person and meets others.
Experience of here and there is a tension of holding that structure up.
Intrinsically that tension is a result of looking or seeking the release of that tension or structure holding that up.
Here is a safety blanket with a tail because now that it’s here , there is a constant need to control , know and feel safe and to search for what it thinks is missing.
When the individual arise in the body as a contracted energy , it arises in everthing energy around .. profound experience of things as solid and real arises with me here
3. **HERE** vs THERE - With the energy contraction emerges a sense of HERE, or a CENTER for the "I AM" to stake its Individuality. "Here" creates a Solidity and Realness "Out There".
What’s happening has a solidity or platform for most people. But there is nothing substantial, just the appearance, just things happening for no one. No subject object duality.
4. Concurrently a Subject / Object Duality apparently arises again because of our biology and upbringing and we see ourselves as separate individuals and hence the stage is set and the game of the seeker is afoot!
III. There is a Seeker Born Every Minute - The Great Search (Timelike) [Dreamt Reality Part 2]
1. **Seeking Things and Knowledge [Contracted Energy In Time]**
Separate self it’s always a process
The Great Search and the Separate Self are on and the same. There is a tangible sensation to seeking (contracted energy or interior tension). This is the sensation of grasping, desiring, wishing, wanting, avoiding, resisting... Its the sensation of effort, or seeking! Though sustained by effort and seeking, this contracted energy happened at an early age.
Tension starts with 'here' which is a position. Then looks for confirmation 'Here' is real, like a comfort blanket. As soon as there is a position, everything happens to me, and it matters what happens because I make it real.
The illusion of Here and There creates a space between them, between Subject and Object, Observer and Observed. This SPACE is the stage for the Seeker, the Dream of Me, in which Time unfolds in the Story of My Life. This "Space" is the "Space" of Knowledge and Experience, when the space collapses into nonduality, Experiencing and Knowing Collapse with it.
The Story of Me is a search for meaning and purpose
Now that I am a limited individual, it appears that there is a lot of things OUT THERE, I can attain, wealth, love, sex, happiness, fancy cars and nice houses, and when that doesn't satisfy me.... Enlightenment!!
2. **Journey and Story of Me
I am a real person, there are other real people. I am on a journey in time, I am real, my journey is real. I can influence the story. Difficulty of me is it lives in a separate reality and it things it is real. Everything it sees seems to be real, objects arising, happening to me. I am in here, my thoughts and feelings are mine. Most people are sure they are real and their story. This is a dream world. The separate reality of Me being real is a dream.
Whatever the me does prolongs the realization that nothing needs to be done.
Experience of the individual is the only experience there is.
Tries to overcome experience with more experience
Me is the biggest addiction in the world .. more more more
3. **illusion of free will and choice**. If I do this, it causes that. I can walk a path, become a seeker, engage in a process to get or add something I think I am missing.
Arcade example and free will ... Think I was playing ms Pac-Man
4. **Meaning and Purpose**
If there were purpose there would be a journey to a future tomorrow
Therapy makes the prison cell more comfortable
Search and need for meaning and purpose
If me knew what it was searching for it would be really disappointed
Me says this is not it, this is not it , but it is just this … any energy or effort individual makes is a denial of this already
Meaningless because no meaning or definition. There is nowhere to go , only this. All movements and apparent decisions , beliefs etc is just the mystery appearing as that
Real implies that it matters in both senses of the word … that’s is solid and real and has meaning and purpose. It’s both real and unreal: There’s nowhere to put a nail in it, undefinable. Empty Isness
True hopelessness is the unconditional freedom of everything, because true hopeless is the end of the experience that anything is real.
5. The apparent law of cause and effect gives the illusion of real sequence of events in time which I can control, and the ME have a HERE location with things out THERE gives the illusion of Space.
6. I make the story real by adding an illusory SOLIDITY to things by knowing and owning them. This realness allows me to create a Story of Me called My Life that I can possess and carry around (including thoughts, beliefs and emotions).
Knowing and possessing comes from solidity.
7.**Dissatification from being Separate**
Sense that arises that is something dissatisifying about living in a separate reality. I am in here and everything else is out there.
Most people live in this sense of lack, and everything they do is a way of coping with this separate identity.
People that are a bit more sensitive, want to find out why they feel a lack and are dissatisfied, so they go to therapy, or a teacher that teaches enlightenment.
The individual is convinced it has to do it. Conviction that I have to learn to become fulfilled, and one day I , the self will be fulfilled. That is all an illusion.
Me comes from the position that it’s real and something needs to happen for this to be what it is … and that can’t possibly be true because it’s already this.
Hope is a horrible thing , it’s never this it’s always something else.
End of hope , not hopelessness or despair
6. 2 Me's - higher and lower self:
Me - 2 levels, higher self and lower self. Lower self, pleasuring itself, higher self, something better, new job, or riches, or being a loving, a good person, roles that are attractive to the me.
Me in a strange dream it can find a Higher calling. Many teachers in the world appeal to this.
Teaching confirms something in the psyche has, unworthiness... it has lost something, cast out and grows up feeling unworthy.
7. *Me takes on many roles* - parent, child, profession, lover, gender, diet, religion, politics, etc (wilber) - Think of Bryant's I AM _____
6. ALL This creates a cloud of Knowing, which is a thick fog of illusion that adds another layer to the veil of duality and further clouds my perception of What IS.
Knowing seems to be a collection of experience and ideas. Experience is the tension in space between subject and object.
7. **What the seeker really longs for has never been lost**
What the seeker really longs for is constantly all there is, it never went away.
And the seeker is rushing around in a circle for everything that is already all there is which is a mystery.
What’s wanted is what’s happening because it is the fulfillment of everything. Me wants it a particular way over the reality that this is the mystery of unknowing
Whatever the separate self does prolongs the realization that nothing needed to be done
You reject the Beloved by trying to own and know the Beloved. The beloved is unconditional love , that’s all there is (but it’s not warm and cuddly).
The great illusion of duality and separateness. (that never really happens)
1. **Seeking Things and Knowledge [Contracted Energy In Time]**
Separate self it’s always a process
The Great Search and the Separate Self are on and the same. There is a tangible sensation to seeking (contracted energy or interior tension). This is the sensation of grasping, desiring, wishing, wanting, avoiding, resisting... Its the sensation of effort, or seeking! Though sustained by effort and seeking, this contracted energy happened at an early age.
Tension starts with 'here' which is a position. Then looks for confirmation 'Here' is real, like a comfort blanket. As soon as there is a position, everything happens to me, and it matters what happens because I make it real.
The illusion of Here and There creates a space between them, between Subject and Object, Observer and Observed. This SPACE is the stage for the Seeker, the Dream of Me, in which Time unfolds in the Story of My Life. This "Space" is the "Space" of Knowledge and Experience, when the space collapses into nonduality, Experiencing and Knowing Collapse with it.
The Story of Me is a search for meaning and purpose
Now that I am a limited individual, it appears that there is a lot of things OUT THERE, I can attain, wealth, love, sex, happiness, fancy cars and nice houses, and when that doesn't satisfy me.... Enlightenment!!
2. **Journey and Story of Me
I am a real person, there are other real people. I am on a journey in time, I am real, my journey is real. I can influence the story. Difficulty of me is it lives in a separate reality and it things it is real. Everything it sees seems to be real, objects arising, happening to me. I am in here, my thoughts and feelings are mine. Most people are sure they are real and their story. This is a dream world. The separate reality of Me being real is a dream.
Whatever the me does prolongs the realization that nothing needs to be done.
Experience of the individual is the only experience there is.
Tries to overcome experience with more experience
Me is the biggest addiction in the world .. more more more
3. **illusion of free will and choice**. If I do this, it causes that. I can walk a path, become a seeker, engage in a process to get or add something I think I am missing.
Arcade example and free will ... Think I was playing ms Pac-Man
4. **Meaning and Purpose**
If there were purpose there would be a journey to a future tomorrow
Therapy makes the prison cell more comfortable
Search and need for meaning and purpose
If me knew what it was searching for it would be really disappointed
Me says this is not it, this is not it , but it is just this … any energy or effort individual makes is a denial of this already
Meaningless because no meaning or definition. There is nowhere to go , only this. All movements and apparent decisions , beliefs etc is just the mystery appearing as that
Real implies that it matters in both senses of the word … that’s is solid and real and has meaning and purpose. It’s both real and unreal: There’s nowhere to put a nail in it, undefinable. Empty Isness
True hopelessness is the unconditional freedom of everything, because true hopeless is the end of the experience that anything is real.
5. The apparent law of cause and effect gives the illusion of real sequence of events in time which I can control, and the ME have a HERE location with things out THERE gives the illusion of Space.
6. I make the story real by adding an illusory SOLIDITY to things by knowing and owning them. This realness allows me to create a Story of Me called My Life that I can possess and carry around (including thoughts, beliefs and emotions).
Knowing and possessing comes from solidity.
7.**Dissatification from being Separate**
Sense that arises that is something dissatisifying about living in a separate reality. I am in here and everything else is out there.
Most people live in this sense of lack, and everything they do is a way of coping with this separate identity.
People that are a bit more sensitive, want to find out why they feel a lack and are dissatisfied, so they go to therapy, or a teacher that teaches enlightenment.
The individual is convinced it has to do it. Conviction that I have to learn to become fulfilled, and one day I , the self will be fulfilled. That is all an illusion.
Me comes from the position that it’s real and something needs to happen for this to be what it is … and that can’t possibly be true because it’s already this.
Hope is a horrible thing , it’s never this it’s always something else.
End of hope , not hopelessness or despair
6. 2 Me's - higher and lower self:
Me - 2 levels, higher self and lower self. Lower self, pleasuring itself, higher self, something better, new job, or riches, or being a loving, a good person, roles that are attractive to the me.
Me in a strange dream it can find a Higher calling. Many teachers in the world appeal to this.
Teaching confirms something in the psyche has, unworthiness... it has lost something, cast out and grows up feeling unworthy.
7. *Me takes on many roles* - parent, child, profession, lover, gender, diet, religion, politics, etc (wilber) - Think of Bryant's I AM _____
6. ALL This creates a cloud of Knowing, which is a thick fog of illusion that adds another layer to the veil of duality and further clouds my perception of What IS.
Knowing seems to be a collection of experience and ideas. Experience is the tension in space between subject and object.
7. **What the seeker really longs for has never been lost**
What the seeker really longs for is constantly all there is, it never went away.
And the seeker is rushing around in a circle for everything that is already all there is which is a mystery.
What’s wanted is what’s happening because it is the fulfillment of everything. Me wants it a particular way over the reality that this is the mystery of unknowing
Whatever the separate self does prolongs the realization that nothing needed to be done
You reject the Beloved by trying to own and know the Beloved. The beloved is unconditional love , that’s all there is (but it’s not warm and cuddly).
The great illusion of duality and separateness. (that never really happens)
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Dream Bus , the Bus of the seeker.
The me lives in a reality where it can only go on doing things.
It is on a bus, a dream bus,
And every stop, it never stops at a bus stop because the bus
Stop says "what's next". The me can only exist in a world where it.
Always in anticipation of what's next instead of seeing What Is.
Is moving on trying to learn more and more. It lives in a world
Of trying to know more and more, because it cannot know infinity
And infinity cannot be known. It is constantly going on looking
For infinity. The energy of me is constantly apparently doing something.
It is endless.
Sudden collapse of that energy.
There is nowhere to go , only this. All movements and apparent decisions , beliefs etc is just the mystery appearing as that. In reality the dream bus is spinning its wheels and going now here in What Is.
TO KEEP SEEKING IS TO KEEP MISSING!
*Stain nonduality - there is Someone or something that needs to happen.
The me lives in a reality where it can only go on doing things.
It is on a bus, a dream bus,
And every stop, it never stops at a bus stop because the bus
Stop says "what's next". The me can only exist in a world where it.
Always in anticipation of what's next instead of seeing What Is.
Is moving on trying to learn more and more. It lives in a world
Of trying to know more and more, because it cannot know infinity
And infinity cannot be known. It is constantly going on looking
For infinity. The energy of me is constantly apparently doing something.
It is endless.
Sudden collapse of that energy.
There is nowhere to go , only this. All movements and apparent decisions , beliefs etc is just the mystery appearing as that. In reality the dream bus is spinning its wheels and going now here in What Is.
TO KEEP SEEKING IS TO KEEP MISSING!
*Stain nonduality - there is Someone or something that needs to happen.
IV. Liberation/Enlightenment/Moksha/Satori - Primal Glance - One Taste -
Rigpa/ Yeshe / Prajna / Jnana {Subject-like} = Brahman/UR/Tao/God/Spirit {Object-like}
[Natural Reality Recognized to be always already: Knowing it = Being it]
1. This is the death of Me, Death of the I while the body is still alive.
Only in our absence are we truly present
When "me" dies there is only unknowing.
Completely unexpected, it's obvious its always been this way, how could it be any other way?
Recognized that the Me never was, so it is an unhappening (Gateless Gate).
To seek the infinite in the finite through a process called enlightenment is wonderfully futile … more effort = bigger me. The seeker of enlightenment as fundamentally dualistic viewpoint.
It’s possible another perception can happen .. liberation is the end of the energy of seeking. All that’s left is unknowable , cannot be described. It is What is already
2. The contracted energy uncoils, the knots are undone, the bodymind relaxes and all that is left is just what arises, just what is happening. No more Subject and Object, inside and out and is recognized there never was, it was all a dream.
Recognized Contraction and Tension & Neurosis throughout body, releases energy and invigorates the body - one of the best things for your health! Energy Medicine!
Contracted Energies and Tensions relax back into wholeness.
End of experience of something inside that ends at the skin and what’s perceived outside .. and there’s a subtle tension in that whole setup.
But there is no here and there and when that collapses there is no need to seek that anymore.
What is ultimately lost is position and what's left is everything which just what's apparently happening.
Liberation is not clarity or understanding, it’s an energetic shift from a contracted energy into boundlessness. And it’s the end of something that was never happening.
When the tension in the body drops away , it’s surprising and shocking how much tension was in the body , how pervasive it was and how integral to the experience of being separate. Tension in body feedback loops ..
neurosis loosens , no one really cares about what’s thinking or emotions.
3. Recognition of THIS being radical wholeness, everything is in everything and there is nothing to seek. How can you seek anything when you have everything? What better hiding place than being everywhere.
So simple and obvious. Everyone has got it because it is recognized there is nothing else.
Nothing gained or attained
No practices or techniques can get you to what you are already
Recognition, spontaneous realization, resonance, Buddhahood without meditation (Dzogchen phrase)
Final Realization is 'not other' to anything that is presently arising.
No answer to Life, for Life is its own answer.
4. It is the Immediacy of Just What is, Just This, Just what is happening which is Everything and Nothing, Absolute Freedom (no causality)
You are already completely enveloped in what you long for. And what you long for is constantly singing a song to you , but you can’t hear it because you’re seeking and trying to find it. It’s this already. By trying to find it you make it something.
4. Insubstantial - It’s not that it disappears. It’s more like the innards of everything drops out or falls away.
It’s more surprising that the experience of the individual is as solid as it seems to be.
4. Can happen spontaneously for no reason, through resonance or pointing out instructions from a non-dual teacher.
Eventually the mind sees its limitations and gives itself up.
Something might stop happening that never happened. Individual thinks it needs to add something to itself for this appearance to be whole but there’s nothing to add to yourself , there’s nothing missing.
GLIMPSES - Meing and Being can happen. Struggle and paradox is the Glimpses are in the past and 'what is' is always the Glimpse. Glimpses are a loss of something. Liberation is a Loss, not an attainment.
It’s This , and you have no idea what that glimpse was , because the memory of it is not it. It’s this right now. There is only unknowing appearing as an individual that’s thinks it knows
Jim quickly gave up any effort to try to understand what was being said, because it was so obviously unimaginably unknowable but at the same time there was something being touched. Found home. Something was completely in love with what it didn’t understand.
Can’t describe what is , if you could it would be known. Very ordinary AND magnificent! It's like a veil lifted ..
5. This Game, the Great Search is undone in that Primal Glance, and all that remains is Emptiness itself, perfectly obvious in the singing of a Robin on a bright Spring Dawn.
Rigpa/ Yeshe / Prajna / Jnana {Subject-like} = Brahman/UR/Tao/God/Spirit {Object-like}
[Natural Reality Recognized to be always already: Knowing it = Being it]
1. This is the death of Me, Death of the I while the body is still alive.
Only in our absence are we truly present
When "me" dies there is only unknowing.
Completely unexpected, it's obvious its always been this way, how could it be any other way?
Recognized that the Me never was, so it is an unhappening (Gateless Gate).
To seek the infinite in the finite through a process called enlightenment is wonderfully futile … more effort = bigger me. The seeker of enlightenment as fundamentally dualistic viewpoint.
It’s possible another perception can happen .. liberation is the end of the energy of seeking. All that’s left is unknowable , cannot be described. It is What is already
2. The contracted energy uncoils, the knots are undone, the bodymind relaxes and all that is left is just what arises, just what is happening. No more Subject and Object, inside and out and is recognized there never was, it was all a dream.
Recognized Contraction and Tension & Neurosis throughout body, releases energy and invigorates the body - one of the best things for your health! Energy Medicine!
Contracted Energies and Tensions relax back into wholeness.
End of experience of something inside that ends at the skin and what’s perceived outside .. and there’s a subtle tension in that whole setup.
But there is no here and there and when that collapses there is no need to seek that anymore.
What is ultimately lost is position and what's left is everything which just what's apparently happening.
Liberation is not clarity or understanding, it’s an energetic shift from a contracted energy into boundlessness. And it’s the end of something that was never happening.
When the tension in the body drops away , it’s surprising and shocking how much tension was in the body , how pervasive it was and how integral to the experience of being separate. Tension in body feedback loops ..
neurosis loosens , no one really cares about what’s thinking or emotions.
3. Recognition of THIS being radical wholeness, everything is in everything and there is nothing to seek. How can you seek anything when you have everything? What better hiding place than being everywhere.
So simple and obvious. Everyone has got it because it is recognized there is nothing else.
Nothing gained or attained
No practices or techniques can get you to what you are already
Recognition, spontaneous realization, resonance, Buddhahood without meditation (Dzogchen phrase)
Final Realization is 'not other' to anything that is presently arising.
No answer to Life, for Life is its own answer.
4. It is the Immediacy of Just What is, Just This, Just what is happening which is Everything and Nothing, Absolute Freedom (no causality)
You are already completely enveloped in what you long for. And what you long for is constantly singing a song to you , but you can’t hear it because you’re seeking and trying to find it. It’s this already. By trying to find it you make it something.
4. Insubstantial - It’s not that it disappears. It’s more like the innards of everything drops out or falls away.
It’s more surprising that the experience of the individual is as solid as it seems to be.
4. Can happen spontaneously for no reason, through resonance or pointing out instructions from a non-dual teacher.
Eventually the mind sees its limitations and gives itself up.
Something might stop happening that never happened. Individual thinks it needs to add something to itself for this appearance to be whole but there’s nothing to add to yourself , there’s nothing missing.
GLIMPSES - Meing and Being can happen. Struggle and paradox is the Glimpses are in the past and 'what is' is always the Glimpse. Glimpses are a loss of something. Liberation is a Loss, not an attainment.
It’s This , and you have no idea what that glimpse was , because the memory of it is not it. It’s this right now. There is only unknowing appearing as an individual that’s thinks it knows
Jim quickly gave up any effort to try to understand what was being said, because it was so obviously unimaginably unknowable but at the same time there was something being touched. Found home. Something was completely in love with what it didn’t understand.
Can’t describe what is , if you could it would be known. Very ordinary AND magnificent! It's like a veil lifted ..
5. This Game, the Great Search is undone in that Primal Glance, and all that remains is Emptiness itself, perfectly obvious in the singing of a Robin on a bright Spring Dawn.
Liberation 'Pointers'
There is no Going from Duality to Non-duality, as there is only Non-duality.
You cannot become One with what is already One.
That which we seek has never been lost, so how can it be "found"?
To keep seeking is to keep missing what is Always Already present.
The Beloved is hiding in plain site. What better hiding place then everything!
"This" is not necessarily easy to find (though it should be), but it is impossible to lose!
There is no answer to life, because life is its own answer.
"This" is always the loudest this yelling "This is Home"!
There is no way to get away from what you are seeking/looking for.
The final realization is "not other" to anything that is presently arising.
Ultimate reality needs to be realized, and cannot be defined or conceptualized (defining by definition is objectifying and creating distance).
Spontaneous Realization, Resonance, Deeper Wisdom... Meditation may help, but ultimately no practice can get you to what you are already.
If everything is whole and perfect already, what is there to seek? What is there to find?
The oldest thought is completely new
No one wakes up from the dream because both the dream and the dreamer are a part of it.
There is no Going from Duality to Non-duality, as there is only Non-duality.
You cannot become One with what is already One.
That which we seek has never been lost, so how can it be "found"?
To keep seeking is to keep missing what is Always Already present.
The Beloved is hiding in plain site. What better hiding place then everything!
"This" is not necessarily easy to find (though it should be), but it is impossible to lose!
There is no answer to life, because life is its own answer.
"This" is always the loudest this yelling "This is Home"!
There is no way to get away from what you are seeking/looking for.
The final realization is "not other" to anything that is presently arising.
Ultimate reality needs to be realized, and cannot be defined or conceptualized (defining by definition is objectifying and creating distance).
Spontaneous Realization, Resonance, Deeper Wisdom... Meditation may help, but ultimately no practice can get you to what you are already.
If everything is whole and perfect already, what is there to seek? What is there to find?
The oldest thought is completely new
No one wakes up from the dream because both the dream and the dreamer are a part of it.
Tony Summary of Dream of Me
**Free and Boundless Energy/Aliveness**
It can’t be understood , it’s an energy (Shakti) that is boundless. There is nothing that influences that energy , it’s without meaning or purpose of any kind.
It’s simple Aliveness. And because that energy is utterly free and boundless it can also be limited.
**Contracted energy**
That limited energy brings a contracted sense (child starts off boundless and free). After a year feeling of identity and self awareness. That starts the I AM dream of separation and the child grows up and seems to meet a lot of other I AMs. I am an individual and I live in a world full of other individuals. I am real , those individuals are real so my story is real.
**Story of Me looking for Fulfillment***
I will live and I will die. And it’s a story. And if it’s a story about me, it must have some sense of purpose or meaning
Child grows up into adult in that world and it learns how to , live, adapt , fit in and play games in that world.
It learns how to manipulate the story and it believes it has free will and choice to make its story better or worse. That becomes a normal world , but there remains a feeling of dissatisfaction living in that dualistic world. Living in a world where I am the center and everything else is happening to me. Not fulfilling. Always trying to satisfy a constant since of lack.
The dream is this is my body and it belongs to me.
Me = need, when there is no me there is no need because everything is already fulfilled. Me lives in a perpetual circle , always anticipating the next moment or experience… always on the move looking.
They feel they have to find fulfillment so they objectify it as something to have. I have to have fulfillment or enlightenment.
**Enlightenment, Teachers and Teachings**
Have to work towards attaining.
Many paths and many religions promising them a path leading to fulfillment. It’s still a dualistic path. They can never find it , because they are looking for the infinite in the finite. They are looking for something beyond knowing what they can know.
So the individual is always looking for a better experience (to fulfill it).
What’s suggested is this while I am dream is an illusion, it comes out of an illusory perception or experience.
Also the idea of seeking a path to fulfillment is absolutely and utterly futile.
It’s energetic, Not anybodys energy , it’s just the aliveness or boundless energy that is all there is. And it can melt that contracted energy back into the whole.
An individual claiming to have attained enlightenment is a contradiction.
**Collapse of Me**
Me longs for its absence
What you long for is constantly all there is (Tony says 3x). It’s utterly amazing !!
Relaxation because there is a lot of anxiety , tension and energy needed to maintain the separate self , sense of identity … body has more energy
When the me collapse everything is left which is indescribable. Nothing can describe what is.
What is: Everything is an appearance out of nothing which is a mystery. Just unknowing, which me doesn’t like.
You are already completely enveloped in what you long for. And what you long for is constantly singing a song to you , but you can’t hear it because you’re seeking and trying to find it. It’s this already. By trying to find it you make it something.
It’s empty fullness , nothing is creating it. It just is and is not.WOW!
No liberation or enlightenment, just the dropping away of an illusion. This is about loss, not something you are going to attain.
When there is no one , it’s obvious there is only nothing and everything is apparent but this is recognized by no one (can’t be put in words/
**Free and Boundless Energy/Aliveness**
It can’t be understood , it’s an energy (Shakti) that is boundless. There is nothing that influences that energy , it’s without meaning or purpose of any kind.
It’s simple Aliveness. And because that energy is utterly free and boundless it can also be limited.
**Contracted energy**
That limited energy brings a contracted sense (child starts off boundless and free). After a year feeling of identity and self awareness. That starts the I AM dream of separation and the child grows up and seems to meet a lot of other I AMs. I am an individual and I live in a world full of other individuals. I am real , those individuals are real so my story is real.
**Story of Me looking for Fulfillment***
I will live and I will die. And it’s a story. And if it’s a story about me, it must have some sense of purpose or meaning
Child grows up into adult in that world and it learns how to , live, adapt , fit in and play games in that world.
It learns how to manipulate the story and it believes it has free will and choice to make its story better or worse. That becomes a normal world , but there remains a feeling of dissatisfaction living in that dualistic world. Living in a world where I am the center and everything else is happening to me. Not fulfilling. Always trying to satisfy a constant since of lack.
The dream is this is my body and it belongs to me.
Me = need, when there is no me there is no need because everything is already fulfilled. Me lives in a perpetual circle , always anticipating the next moment or experience… always on the move looking.
They feel they have to find fulfillment so they objectify it as something to have. I have to have fulfillment or enlightenment.
**Enlightenment, Teachers and Teachings**
Have to work towards attaining.
Many paths and many religions promising them a path leading to fulfillment. It’s still a dualistic path. They can never find it , because they are looking for the infinite in the finite. They are looking for something beyond knowing what they can know.
So the individual is always looking for a better experience (to fulfill it).
What’s suggested is this while I am dream is an illusion, it comes out of an illusory perception or experience.
Also the idea of seeking a path to fulfillment is absolutely and utterly futile.
It’s energetic, Not anybodys energy , it’s just the aliveness or boundless energy that is all there is. And it can melt that contracted energy back into the whole.
An individual claiming to have attained enlightenment is a contradiction.
**Collapse of Me**
Me longs for its absence
What you long for is constantly all there is (Tony says 3x). It’s utterly amazing !!
Relaxation because there is a lot of anxiety , tension and energy needed to maintain the separate self , sense of identity … body has more energy
When the me collapse everything is left which is indescribable. Nothing can describe what is.
What is: Everything is an appearance out of nothing which is a mystery. Just unknowing, which me doesn’t like.
You are already completely enveloped in what you long for. And what you long for is constantly singing a song to you , but you can’t hear it because you’re seeking and trying to find it. It’s this already. By trying to find it you make it something.
It’s empty fullness , nothing is creating it. It just is and is not.WOW!
No liberation or enlightenment, just the dropping away of an illusion. This is about loss, not something you are going to attain.
When there is no one , it’s obvious there is only nothing and everything is apparent but this is recognized by no one (can’t be put in words/
Jim Summary
This, What is, is full , complete , whole , it’s perfection
Within that perfection Arise the experience of me that thinks it’s real. It takes is and isn’t bit and focuses on the is bit and makes it real. I am real.
That experience or reality is the experience of separation. I’m here and everything else is outside of me happening to me. Like being cast out of heaven.
World is no longer perfect as it is. I understand and know the world and I’m on the search for perfection that seems to have been lost.
The experience I am is still perfection. There’s nothing else , there’s still nothing happening.
But the arising of the experience of I am creates a need , which is part of its story where it’s says I will find in the future what I feel I’m missing.
And that seeking energy hides the perfection that this is already.
That experience that I’m going to find something , that I’m am real and on a journey of experience. That whole thing is illusory. Nothing has ever happened and nothing will ever happen.
Everything that appears is emptiness. It’s the formless appearing to be something moving.
The something else the individual is looking for doesn’t exist. This entire appearance is real and unreal.
The entire appearance at the moment appears to be in a room. The individual will take up a position thinking I am in this room and things are real and outside of me.
When there is no one left there’s just emptiness rooming, peopling , chairing , just speaking , just hearing , just what’s happening , there is no position for that.
When the separate self, the me , I am falls away one of the most poignant things is the recognition that it never happened.
That there was a position separate from any other.
It’s recognized that every apparent position is everything… that hand is everything, that’s the infinite handing
So there are no answers
Me arises and experiences separation and tries to add to itself to close that gap (experience, knowledge, things). It can never find enough to add. No matter how much it gets , it’s never enough.
It’s not like we are looking for there to be no one , the suggestion is there isn’t anyone already. There isn’t there and there and there.
This, What is, is full , complete , whole , it’s perfection
Within that perfection Arise the experience of me that thinks it’s real. It takes is and isn’t bit and focuses on the is bit and makes it real. I am real.
That experience or reality is the experience of separation. I’m here and everything else is outside of me happening to me. Like being cast out of heaven.
World is no longer perfect as it is. I understand and know the world and I’m on the search for perfection that seems to have been lost.
The experience I am is still perfection. There’s nothing else , there’s still nothing happening.
But the arising of the experience of I am creates a need , which is part of its story where it’s says I will find in the future what I feel I’m missing.
And that seeking energy hides the perfection that this is already.
That experience that I’m going to find something , that I’m am real and on a journey of experience. That whole thing is illusory. Nothing has ever happened and nothing will ever happen.
Everything that appears is emptiness. It’s the formless appearing to be something moving.
The something else the individual is looking for doesn’t exist. This entire appearance is real and unreal.
The entire appearance at the moment appears to be in a room. The individual will take up a position thinking I am in this room and things are real and outside of me.
When there is no one left there’s just emptiness rooming, peopling , chairing , just speaking , just hearing , just what’s happening , there is no position for that.
When the separate self, the me , I am falls away one of the most poignant things is the recognition that it never happened.
That there was a position separate from any other.
It’s recognized that every apparent position is everything… that hand is everything, that’s the infinite handing
So there are no answers
Me arises and experiences separation and tries to add to itself to close that gap (experience, knowledge, things). It can never find enough to add. No matter how much it gets , it’s never enough.
It’s not like we are looking for there to be no one , the suggestion is there isn’t anyone already. There isn’t there and there and there.